Friday, August 24, 2012

Long Overdue Post

First of all I can't believe it's the end of August already. Summer is winding down. I can't believe summer is just about over. We really don't get much summer here, since we started late again this year like we did last year.

I also want to add a tad bit about people again. I have encountered and dealt with some interesting people lately and so far this year. You think you know someone and then they do something completely out of character and it just doesn't make sense. It's really sad.

Friends you have known FOREVER and you all of a sudden don't hear from them anymore? Like I said people don't make any fucking sense. BTW if you don't like my language, don't read my blog!

People tell you one thing then an hour later, or a week later they tell you something completely opposite? Or they say one thing and do another?

I don't think people understand nor care about other people's feelings. Seems like a lot of people these days are extremely selfish, only care about themselves or what is going to benefit them.

I have been dealt a horrible deck of cards thus far in my life and a lot of people I have had to deal with don't make anything better by being stupid assholes.
This horrible deck of cards I am referring to..
that's a whole other posting to follow this one.
Thanks for reading and please comment!




Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Pain

Pain sucks. It really really sucks. I have tried so many things to deal with pain and relieve pain. I have tried pain pills, pain patches, physical therapy, acupuncture, heating pad, ice, and hot tub. Some stuff helps but causes other problems and some stuff doesn't help at all.

Being in pain all the time is very tolling on a person. It makes me feel depressed bc most of the time I am unable to do much at all. I wish I could just feel better.

It is so hard to deal with other people in regards to my pain since apparently some people think I am faking it. To those people whom I have come across, you will have no idea how much pain I am in on a daily basis or what I have to go through until you have been in my shoes or have had a similar experience yourself.

Dealing with all the health issues that I have to deal with causes me to feel worthless because I can't work.
I can't work for the following reasons, my health issues make it hard to stand up for more than 30 seconds, sit for more than 30 minutes, and I am stuck in bed most of the time due to pain and or side effects from medicines that I am on.

I have worked in the past and I have been fired from jobs for being sick, not being able to come in to work due to being stuck in bed in excruciating pain, and being in the hospital.

I just wish people had more compassion and understanding of what I am going through. I have come across some who understand and even if they don't they have the compassion of wanting to understand and are there for me whether it be family or friends. On the other hand I have come across people who think I am lazy? Or whatever they may have said, but that is definitely not the case.

My hope for the future is that I can find something that works for me to help the pain I have so that my life can improve for the better. To this day, I have still not found that one thing. It's hard to do because I am trying to manage 5 different health issues. While one might be under control for example while I have gone to physical therapy usually...I say usually ...my migraines get reduced to just daily headaches, sometimes those migraines still pop up. Once I stop physical therapy, muscles tighten up again and migraines come flooding back in. It's proven in the past to just be a bandaid, since I have fibromyalgia this is always going to happen, pain in all my muscles in the body. There is no cure for it and the doctors don't fully understand it either.

Please comment on this I would like to hear suggestions if anyone has tried something that works for them. Thanks for reading.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Fibromyalgia

Not a lot of people can understand how it is to live on a day to day basis with fibromyalgia. I have come in contact with a LOT of people who have NO clue what I am going through. Fibromyalgia is a very debilitating condition that affects 5 million Americans and of those 90% are women. People with Fibro are 3-4 x more likely to suffer from depression as well. People suffering from Fibromyalgia generally have other health conditions as well.

If you have a number of health issues like I do, it makes it hard to enjoy life or even be comfortable on a day to day basis. Being in constant pain is no picnic. Generally any medicine you can take for pain will also cause you to be sleepy, not making it easy to get stuff done.

I want people to be more aware of this condition and have some compassion for people who do have it because we need the support.


What is wrong with people today?

Seriously.. There must be something in the water... It seems lately that people are just basically complete assholes who only care about themselves. I always offer to help my friends when they need help, but when I need help people are not willing or offering. Some people who call themselves my friends are acting very immature. It's like I'm not good enough to be your friend bc I don't do some of the things you do which are so high school? I have grown up, so should you.

I don't understand why people who are you friends would ignore your messages and calls when you reach out to them to hang out. Like they only want to when its convenient to them. Or maybe it's because they don't understand what you are going thru, so they just make judgements on stuff they have no clue about. I have no idea.. But I just wish they would open their eyes and have some compassion.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Karma

I believe in Karma now more than ever. I do truly believe that what goes around comes around. If you have been a horrible person in anyway shape or form, you will get what is coming to you. The reason that I believe in it now more than ever is because of some events that have recently occurred in my life and I have nothing else to make me feel better at this moment, so I know that these horrid people will get what they deserve. Life does offer us lessons to learn everyday and I have sure learned plenty of them already. After everything that I have gone through, what I come out with is the following: that I can't trust anyone and to not have people in my life at all who treat me with disrespect or whom don't deserve to be.

So to all you people out there.. Treat others the way you would want to be treated. If you treat someone the way you want to be treated and they don't do the same.. Get rid of them! Here's to getting rid of the bad people in our lives! Feels soo good! :)

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Right vs Wrong

Doing the right thing seems like an easy thing right? Well for some people it is definitely not a priority for them. I just don't see how people can do wrong towards others and feel good about themselves, or sleep at night. How can knowing you are causing someone major stress and anxiety make you feel okay about yourself? I would feel horrible because I am a good person. Some people just need to grow up. Realize that there are other people in this world besides yourself.

Friday, January 13, 2012

People

There are good and bad people in this world, all around us, everyday. Some people come into our lives and stay a long time. Some people come into our lives and quickly go, whatever that reason may be. I believe that everything happens for a reason. We may not know what that reason is, but there is one. People are complex and there are just some things I can't figure out. Why people act a certain way, when you knew them differently. I have struggled over the years to figure it all out, but I am now realizing that you can't. Now at this point in my life, I have learned over the years, that now and from now on, I will not allow people to be a part of my life who don't deserve it.

Everyone should surround themselves with positive people. Nobody needs negativity in their lives. Even me with having to deal with pain on a daily basis, don't want to be surrounded by negativity bc I smile, I laugh and I try to enjoy life regardless of the pain I'm dealing with.

As far as making sure the people in your life are good and not a bad influence or causing you stress that you don't need.. This can be anyone.. Your friends, your family,etc...

So here's to getting rid of the bad and keeping the good.


Thursday, January 12, 2012

Friendship Poem By Jana Kreindel

Friendship
By Jana Kreindel

Surely everyone knows what friendship is.
It is the laughter that fills your heart.
It is the “Best” in “Best Friends.”
It is what keeps you going even when you’re down; the smiles that spread across your face to wipe out that frown.
Friendship is being able to call that one person when you have a problem and knowing they will be there to support you and listen to you.
It is the feeling of joy when you spend time with them, the feeling of comfort when they offer a shoulder to cry on, and the feeling of happiness all around.
Friendship is an advice column.
Friendship is a three point shot, which wins the game.
It’s a necessity for a happy life.
It’s the frosting on the cake and the peas in the pods.
Friendship is taking pictures to hold on to the dear memories that you create daily to remember upon when you grow old together.

First Official Blog Posting

Well here I am making my first blog posting. I never thought I would be a blogger but I think this will be a good thing for me.

I have so much I can talk about I'm not sure where to start. Writing is a good way to express how you are feeling about certain things so I think this will be very healthy.

I'm not sure how many people will actually read anything I write but if anyone does I would love feedback bc I might discuss something that I want advice on or other people's points of views. If nobody reads it that's fine too, it will be basically my online journal then.

I probably won't write too much at a time for each posting bc I don't want to bore anyone and when I do write a lot its probably because I have a lot on my mind and want to get it all out there.

That's all for now.. I will be back very soon to post again!